32 weeks
So I think I have done pretty well with this last loss of not keeping track where I should be at this moment. But every once in a while when I'm on LAM I go and check out the October Baby Club and see what would be going on. So I should be about 32wks. Almost to the end. I can't believe that I should be having a baby in around 8wks, that's crazy and sad all at the same time.
Today is turning out to be one of those other days again. I feel the sadness. I did it to myself this time. If I would just not look then I would be ok.
Today is turning out to be one of those other days again. I feel the sadness. I did it to myself this time. If I would just not look then I would be ok.
posted by Rian at 10:49 AM
3 Comments:
I can relate. I should have been holding my 1 month old baby right now.
The pain is unbearable.
Thank you for sharing on your blog. How did you find my blog?
--Brooke
Hi Rian,
I'm sorry you're going through this. And thanking you visiting my blog, and for your good wishes. I hope you'll be lucky soon, but in the meantime, please be gentle with yourself, and don't revisit sites like that too often. I sometimes torture myself too, but it can end up hurting you more than helping sometimes.
Take care, and I'll be reading.
A
It's weird how the body just knows when the due date has arrived ... even if I want to forget, it won't let me.
Here's a warning so you're not caught off guard: Expect to feel weepy and just plain miserable in the days/weeks before that day. The same thing may happen before the anniversary of your loss and the 1st birth date.
It won't always be this way, friend. Stay encouraged ...
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