Still here

I am still here. Not much has gone on so don't have much to say.

I did see my OB last week for my yearly. She said that she believes both m/c were completely unrelated. Which is what I thought. So there is no reason to believe next pg would end the same way. I guess we will just have to wait and see. Just because she said that doesn't mean I'm not going to worry everyday until that baby is born. I read on someone else's blog that the problem with infertiles once they do it pregnant is that they know too much. And that is the place I am. I have read everything that I can and I officially know too much to not worry about every aspect of a future pregnancy. I know that the only hope that I won't stress for 9 months is the grace of God.

In other news there is a high chance I think I may have ovulated. So that is good news. I guess I will know for sure if my period shows up in a couple of weeks or Lord willing I end up pregnant.

The thankful life.

Thanks everyone for your sweet and kind words. I am still here. Amazingly my period showed up on Tuesday. For this I am very thankful. Even if I don't get pregnant it is just nice to know that the body is doing something right sometimes!!!! I am feeling really good about this cycle. Not in the I think I'm gonna get pregnant or anything, but that I have peace. I know that whatever happens is God's will and I am ok with that. I am trying to stay in a thankful place. I know that regardless of the fact that I don't have a child, God has blessed greatly and for that I am thankful. I have so much more than many many people. My life really isn't all that bad.

I have started the Glucophage for my PCOS. The dr I work for gave it to me. It is supposed to help me to ovulate by lowering my testosterone level which gets raised because of the insulin. It is all a little confusing. But it should help to regulate me and hopefully I will ovulate. The bad part is that it makes me feel like crap. It only lasts about an hour after I take it. I can live with the side effects if it does what it should. It should also help me with my weight. Which I don't mind help with!!! Still going to the gym. I only went two days this week because honestly I'm lazy. But hey two is better than none. :P